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Tragedy
03:45
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Another hollow conversation
No words come to mind to get your attention to reach your heart
Only when It’s too late and we’ve taken separate ways
Regret puts Its weight on me
Will I ever see you again?
Each day passing well known faces
Hiding all affection
While I’m too anxious to speak
Scared of any consequence or what you will think of me
What do you really see?
A man or a boy lost in tragedy
I thought I buried my former self
Got rid of all my ignorant thoughts
Together with many selfish habits
But I haven’t learned a thing at all
Each day is getting longer
With your image stuck in my head along with the sound of your voice
Creating these vague scenarios out of self-doubt, self-pity
Where I stand before you and I’m able to admit
I wasn’t honest when I said I was fine
Time is running out to confess
I was to blame for our disconnection
I was to blame
How many memories are there left of me
How many memories
Another day passes
Another chance ruined
To turn your way and grab your hand
I’m to blame
I’m still the same
I’m to blame
I’m still the same
I’m to blame
I’m to blame for everything
I’m so ashamed that I’m to blame
For everything
For everything
For every fucking thing
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2. |
No Hope
03:47
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So here I am again back inside this tiny room
Spending most of my days avoiding any face I know
In the end I always seem to get here to calm down and try to rest
But instead I overthink too many thoughts go through my head
I’m so sorry to admit I’ve fallen back again to this
Lonely cycle that I can’t seem to escape
Am I disappointment?
Do I still waste your time?
How long will I feel unwanted I just want to feel alive
How much longer will I stay here continuing wasting my time
Why can’t I change
Why is this me?
I can’t accept this reality
I hate being me
Back again inside this tiny room
Lost again
Back again inside this tiny room
Lost again
I always tell myself the same thing everyday
Tomorrow will I be the best version of me
But I fail each time I just fall back again
No hope
This is who I am
I’m such a disappointment
I keep on wasting your time
How long will I be unwanted I just want to feel alive
Always will I be unhappy no hope left for my life
Always will I be unhappy no hope left for my life
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3. |
Worth It
03:34
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Was it all worth it to you
All the time and all the effort we put into creating things
Now when we look back all has fallen apart and faded away
Meaningless memories you can barely remember
You pretend to care only when we cross roads
All the days we spend now just seem in vain
All the days we spend now just seem in vain
Sometimes I wish I would care less
Stop being so afraid to mess up again
Sometimes I wish I wouldn’t care at all
I wouldn’t care at all
I want be relieved and show a gracious smile
When you say to me ‘’Look how much we’ve changed’’
But there’s too much we’ve left behind
There’s too much we’ve left behind
Too much I’ve held dear
Too much wasted time I can’t forget
I’ve got a confession to make
I was never good at parting ways
It’s like a piece of me disappeared
When you turned your back and left me here
Even though I know I won’t feel better holding on
Even though I know I can’t change how you think
I keep being stubborn, being ignorant
I keep being me
Sometimes I wish I would care less
Stop being so afraid to mess up again
Sometimes I wish I wouldn’t care at all
I want be relieved and show a gracious smile
When you say to me ‘’Look how much we’ve changed’’
But there’s too much we’ve left behind
There’s too much we’ve left behind
Was it all worth it to you
All the time and all the effort we put into creating things
Was it all worth it
Cause now there’s nothing left
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4. |
Hesitation
03:50
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I can’t believe how weak and naive I’ve become longing for your love
I keep on wasting more time
But my selfish jealous nature makes me feel like I’m less than everyone else
Too less to mean anything to you
I want to let you go but I don’t want you to leave
I swear I fucking tried,
Oh I swear I’m still trying
But it isn’t as easy as I thought it would be
I’m not happy with myself
Not happy with who I am
Cause I’m not the person you need in your life
This lonely feeling slowly starts pulling me down
Can I push it away or will it stay
I always feel home in your arms but you never feel home in mine.
Can I say anything to make you stay with me I just can’t take
Another night overthinking with my head in my hands
Please don’t leave me here
Please don’t leave me here
I always wonder
Could’ve I done better?
Your smile not humble
The tension starts to ache
I begin to mumble
How much more can I take
Hesitation made me learn my heart is so easily to break
So easily to break
Everyday I wonder if you would ever miss my voice
Everyday I wonder how you would feel if we would never speak again.
Tell me would you miss me
Tell me would you miss me
This lonely feeling has finally pulled me to the bottom
Where I will stay
I always feel home in your arms but you never feel home in mine
Can I say anything to make you stay with me I just can’t take
Another night overthinking with my head in my hands
Please don’t leave me here, please don’t leave me here
Please don’t leave me here
Please don’t leave me here
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5. |
Worrying (Bonus track)
02:50
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Wondering
Worrying
How much pressure can I endure
I never knew why I’ve been like this but I never found a cure
For this awful insecurity that keeps interfering me
Keeping me away from being happy
Always comparing myself with everyone else leaves me thinking I’m not good enough
So I stay silent drown in my own misery
Make myself believe that my presence isn’t worth anything, cause I am nothing
For so many years I got told that eventually I would change
That this insecurity would always stay but I would learn how to cope with it
And I would learn how to hide it and get stronger as I grow older
So I lived and continued with this mindset that everything would be okay.
But why haven’t I changed yet
Why do I still feel the same
Why does this thought of being a failure always linger in my mind
Son, you are beautiful as you are
Mother, last December I’ve turned 22
And I’m ashamed to say I still can’t believe you
Teach me how to love
I want to love myself, I want to be there for you and everyone else
I want to get rid of my doubts, I want to change, I need your help
Teach me how to fucking love myself
Wondering
Worrying
How much pressure can I endure
I never knew why I’ve been like this but I never found a cure
For this awful insecurity that keeps interfering me
Keeping me away from being happy
Always unhappy
Always comparing myself with everyone else leaves me thinking I’m not good enough
So I stay silent, drown in my own misery
Make myself believe that my presence isn’t worth anything cause I am nothing
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6. |
Your Arrow
03:27
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I close my eyes I fall asleep
And see you wandering there in my dreams
Like time doesn’t even exist
If this could only last forever
If I could only dream a little longer
But then I wake up and you’re gone
And you’re gone
Your arrow stays in my heart
I can’t get rid of this pain you left in me
This harsh reality
Makes me want to sleep forever
Take my hand
Never let me go
Don’t wake me up
Cause I already know
That you won’t be there next to me
To comfort me
To help me out
5 past 2 and I’m lying awake
My eyes are burning from wiping all my tears away
Can I ever have an eight hour rest
Without you in my mind again
Why are you only there in my dreams
Your presence made me feel so alive
The worst part is that I don’t even know
If your last words were even honest
You said ‘’It’s best for us both’’
Well losing sleep doesn’t help me at all
I deserve an honest answer
But I know I’m too late to ask
I need the truth
I need you here
Your arrow stays in my heart
I can’t get rid of this pain you left in me
This is harsh reality
Makes me want to sleep forever
Take my hand
Never let me go
Never let me go
Your love is buried in my heart
Your love is buried in my heart
Your love is buried in my heart
Your love is buried in my heart
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I'll Get By Utrecht, Netherlands
We’re I’ll Get By, a group of 5 young musicians from Utrecht and its surroundings who’ve met each other through playing in
various other bands.
Driven by our passion for heavy music we started writing together at the start of 2018 with the goal of unleashing our own flavour of melodic hardcore into the world.
FFO: Counterparts, Casey, La Dispute
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